Is 12 midnight and i trying to make myself to fall asleep but i just cant, because alot of stuff keep coming into my mind and i just cant stop thinking of it.heThe first thing im worry about is my studies...because i have lost my direction in this course(audio engineering)because SHITs happen to the college and some of the senior couldn't get a diploma.....this is a shitty case,we already report all this to the goverment etc even being interview by TV station...but what has came out in the end... "NOTHING or SAME OLD SHIT" . Second thing is....in omy life, music is everything to me and thats why i taken up this course, I've being a bedroom DJ for almost 2 years plus but sometimes i spin in various private parties,and what is in my mind now is..i don't wanna keep hiding myself,i wanted to get out from here and share my music and watching people"BUZZING"aka enjoying the music on the dancefloor) in clubs,but the thing is i didn't know much contacts in KL but i've got a friend in JB is willing to teach me and invited me to spin at JB.I planned to go there around 3 days on this coming december and it is a good opportunity for me experiencing spin in clubs(this is what i wanted)...but i still can't comfirm that i gonna spin(still waiting for answer)...i hope it will be a good new.Third.... i just feel that my life sucks because of all this problem etc, i just feel like quiting college and work....is just like i have wasted alot of time in this stupid college plus i've lost my direction in studies(felt sorry for my parents)....there is nothing special happened in my life before,is just the same old ESMOND going up awhile and down all the time. Being a DJ for me is not only for the salary etc,the main thing being a DJ for me is to share my music on the stage..is happy to look at people dancing with your music. Is not just fame,is all about entertaining myself and others. This is all i could write for now ~~~ esmond aka DJ fronzensteps signing off.....CIAOZ..~~~~
yeah~~~ had fun with all my crazy party friends at freedom elite private rave party on 22nd november(is a by-invitation event, only 5,000 tickets for this party and "WE ARE AMONG THE 5,000) ,and i lost my voice because of shouting....."I NEED SOME HONEY " and doing some crazy things, the most important stuff is I ENJOY THE MUSIC wohooo ~~~~that is the main point of going to rave parties,but i will also learn some stuff from all those famous DJs.Thats all for today....esmond aka djfrozensteps signing 
off~~~CIAOZ..~~~
